Well, its almost time again: time to move, and time for a change once again. The journey of pursuing career in academia isn't an easy choice - nor is an impossible in any way.
It feels like yesterday that I came to Vegas. Honestly, I didn't even get many chances to do lots of things here. Nevertheless, I have found people born and raised here who have done even less stuffs here than I have already done - a bit of relief for me :). Growing in faith, making new friends, learning from others, getting cultured - I did all of those which mattered much more to me than anything else I can think of right now. Although, I have to say I took only couple of steps compared to miles of distance I wanted to travel.
Whenever I try to write a post for this blog, I just get lost into thoughts. There are so many things I want to write. It just feels awkward trying to write everything in a single post. I want to write a whole post about different clubs that I was involved in, I want to write a whole post about Nepalese communities that I met here, I want to write a whole post about academic environment here, I want to write a whole post about cultural difference here. But where's time for writing all of those? Alas! I even have a post that has a humongous list of posts I would want to write! Well if you are planning to come to the U.S., come prepared to get busy.
Going back to the topic, it's about time that I start over again. Just like in Linkin Park's song titled "Waiting for the end" - "The hardest part of ending is starting again." It wasn't an easy journey but I survived - giving up so many things I wanted, didn't even have time and environment to do things I thought of doing once I come here. And now, before I even get a chance to do those things, its almost time to leave. I am almost done with my current study in Vegas, now its time to move on.
I have a lot of uncertainties in front of me. I came from a place where weather was almost perfect, now I am in a place where eggs get half boiled if I leave it inside a car for a day. And now, I am going to a place summer would be the best place to live (walla! I'm going there in summer!). I don't know what kind of people I will meet there, how awesome my professor will be, what's there for fun when I am tired of reading research papers, and so forth. I might uncertainties about how things would work there but surviving there? I guess, I have mastered in the skill of survival.
New places and new opportunities, new ways to know and help people, new ways to learn, and new ways to survive the nature. It's definitely a second chance for me to do things I didn't get a chance to do here, doing better at things that I didn't do so well here, and obviously continuing the good things that I am doing here :).
Better school would mean expectation of better performance from me. I already work so hard, doesn't feel like I can stretch my boundary any further. Only way to stretch my boundary would be giving up the habit of getting almost enough sleep everyday. But that's among the few things that I don't want to give up - nor my experience showed that it would result in any better performance. Sleeplessness usually results in decreased efficiency with increased time availability, not to forget about my eyes which would need thicker glasses because of exposure to modern day technology almost all the time of the day.
Nevertheless, it feels good to know that I don't really have to start from scratch. I have learned lots of lots of things here. Whether it be how to do research, or how to introduce yourself to others, I am better at those things than before - not yet as good as I would want to be but at least better than before.
OMG! I have to tell you there will be nothing to do in the university town I am going to. Almost all of my friends were like "There will be nothing to do there, why are you going there?" My answer would be a better school and brighter career. Well, at least one of my friend said "You'd be surprised!" when I said I am going to the middle of no where. Let's see if I would be surprised!
Considering the fact that I have done almost nothing in this big city where there are probably a lot of things to do - I don't feel like it's going to be any problem. Changes might feel awkward but it is good. If I am not to lie, I do wish that my master's was in middle of nowhere and then doctoral study at big time city rather than the opposite. But, I really don't care much compared to where I am going, or at least that's what I think.
I never felt I am a lucky person. Whoever I am and whatever I have is definitely a result of hard work. Obviously "He" is somewhere helping me out, and not to forget huge support from my family. There is always something to learn. One can learn from books, from experience, and even from mistakes. Gaining experience would usually involve experiencing changes. So I stand firm - to survive this change, gain experience, and learn more.
It feels like yesterday that I came to Vegas. Honestly, I didn't even get many chances to do lots of things here. Nevertheless, I have found people born and raised here who have done even less stuffs here than I have already done - a bit of relief for me :). Growing in faith, making new friends, learning from others, getting cultured - I did all of those which mattered much more to me than anything else I can think of right now. Although, I have to say I took only couple of steps compared to miles of distance I wanted to travel.
Whenever I try to write a post for this blog, I just get lost into thoughts. There are so many things I want to write. It just feels awkward trying to write everything in a single post. I want to write a whole post about different clubs that I was involved in, I want to write a whole post about Nepalese communities that I met here, I want to write a whole post about academic environment here, I want to write a whole post about cultural difference here. But where's time for writing all of those? Alas! I even have a post that has a humongous list of posts I would want to write! Well if you are planning to come to the U.S., come prepared to get busy.
Going back to the topic, it's about time that I start over again. Just like in Linkin Park's song titled "Waiting for the end" - "The hardest part of ending is starting again." It wasn't an easy journey but I survived - giving up so many things I wanted, didn't even have time and environment to do things I thought of doing once I come here. And now, before I even get a chance to do those things, its almost time to leave. I am almost done with my current study in Vegas, now its time to move on.
I have a lot of uncertainties in front of me. I came from a place where weather was almost perfect, now I am in a place where eggs get half boiled if I leave it inside a car for a day. And now, I am going to a place summer would be the best place to live (walla! I'm going there in summer!). I don't know what kind of people I will meet there, how awesome my professor will be, what's there for fun when I am tired of reading research papers, and so forth. I might uncertainties about how things would work there but surviving there? I guess, I have mastered in the skill of survival.
New places and new opportunities, new ways to know and help people, new ways to learn, and new ways to survive the nature. It's definitely a second chance for me to do things I didn't get a chance to do here, doing better at things that I didn't do so well here, and obviously continuing the good things that I am doing here :).
Better school would mean expectation of better performance from me. I already work so hard, doesn't feel like I can stretch my boundary any further. Only way to stretch my boundary would be giving up the habit of getting almost enough sleep everyday. But that's among the few things that I don't want to give up - nor my experience showed that it would result in any better performance. Sleeplessness usually results in decreased efficiency with increased time availability, not to forget about my eyes which would need thicker glasses because of exposure to modern day technology almost all the time of the day.
Nevertheless, it feels good to know that I don't really have to start from scratch. I have learned lots of lots of things here. Whether it be how to do research, or how to introduce yourself to others, I am better at those things than before - not yet as good as I would want to be but at least better than before.
OMG! I have to tell you there will be nothing to do in the university town I am going to. Almost all of my friends were like "There will be nothing to do there, why are you going there?" My answer would be a better school and brighter career. Well, at least one of my friend said "You'd be surprised!" when I said I am going to the middle of no where. Let's see if I would be surprised!
Considering the fact that I have done almost nothing in this big city where there are probably a lot of things to do - I don't feel like it's going to be any problem. Changes might feel awkward but it is good. If I am not to lie, I do wish that my master's was in middle of nowhere and then doctoral study at big time city rather than the opposite. But, I really don't care much compared to where I am going, or at least that's what I think.
I never felt I am a lucky person. Whoever I am and whatever I have is definitely a result of hard work. Obviously "He" is somewhere helping me out, and not to forget huge support from my family. There is always something to learn. One can learn from books, from experience, and even from mistakes. Gaining experience would usually involve experiencing changes. So I stand firm - to survive this change, gain experience, and learn more.
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